One thing most people know about me is that I am terrified of open water. I love water in general, but open water for some reason scares me.
Yesterday, one of my best friends and I decided to take a mental health day and went to the beach. Usually I don't go in the water past my knees, but yesterday in following with my numbers challenge, I decided I didn't want my fear to rule me. So when we finally decided to get into the water I walked in until I was a little less than shoulder deep. I was shaking, but I was doing it!
The second time we went in, going in to my shoulders didn't seem like such a big deal. My friend and I saw a few guys going out to the sand bar (maybe 50 or 60 feet from shore, which to me seemed like 4 or 5 miles) so we decided to go as well. So, slowly we swam towards the sand bar. It was terrifying, but when my feet hit the sand bar it was exhilarating to know that I did it. I was out there.
I may not have conquered my fears, but I definitely took a big step in not letting them control me. Here is the thing about fears, we are always going to have them. They may change over time, but we can't get rid of all of our fears. But, we can decide to not let fear control us. We can choose to live our life outside of fear.
This blog is one of my fears. I know it may not seem that way from my writing, but to put myself out there is terrifying. But, the last week has also been unexpectedly amazing. The best thing about overcoming the control fear has on you is not necessarily the action, but the feeling that goes with conquering something that has a hold on you. There is nothing more freeing.
I hope all of you that are participating in The Numbers Challenge are having a good time and finding the small, breath-taking moments! I cannot wait to hear your stories!
Jeremiah 29:11 day 18
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